It’s alright to make a wrong decision, to choose a stupid choice, or to commit a mistake. Nobody will give a damn about anything you do. People are too busy to even look at you. Whatever decision you make, you shall live the consequences. There are lots of stupid things that happen, in fact, it happens everyday.
We are all stupid. Nobody is right all the time. But, there are different ways how we handle it. People differ on how they face a predicament. Some let the predicament break them, while some let themselves break free from the predicament. *don’t worry, I don’t get my point either.
I miss it when the only thing I have to worry about is how to get past my mom so I could play outside. I miss it when the only thing that makes me sad is missing a Tom and Jerry episode. I miss it when the only thing I am ever afraid of is getting scolded by granny. I miss it when the only person I fear of is my mom.
Back then, things were very simple. Happiness was just worth a lollipop or an ice cream. I didn’t care much what flavor or toppings the ice cream had, as long as it’s sweet and melts in my mouth, my lips would form a curl and I’d be the happiest girl in the world.
Often times, I hate myself for being myself. I have a lot of weak spots. I know my weaknesses but I still let it take over me- like anger, pain, sensitiveness. I easily get distracted. I easily change moods - one day I am very happy, the next day, I’d be crying alone in my room thinking about the greatest what if’s and why’s of my life. I am very vulnerable to words and actions. I am an over-thinker. I like comparing myself to others - but
will always end up being a loser. Not so many people appreciate me or my works - not that I know. I find logging in to facebook and instagram as depressing, I mean, seriously. I’d browse the feeds and when a post pisses me off, I’d end up getting pissed all night. Is this normal? I kinda don’t like the idea.